missing you like never before

and i find myself crying,
nearly every night

love.

what a journey it has been,
i'm still falling in love with you
over and over again.

missing you alot

hello darling,

the end of your NSF days is just a mere 2 days away. do you know how much this means to me?

for the whole length of time we've been together (sans 2 months), most of what we've been through is you having to book in to camp. now that that's out of the picture, what lies ahead?

i can't wait to find out (:

I love you darling

i love you, and...

smile

sometimes it feels as if we're going nowhere. we look at what we've been trying to achieve, what lengths we may have gone to, what measures we've taken and yet nothing seems to be enough. nothing seems to add up. we feel like it has become a hopeless cause.

there will always be other ways,
there will be other people,
there will be other pursuits.
other dreams, other desires.
never give up, because i am never giving up on you.

Thank You (:

Happy Birthday!

Title says it all.

Hope you've enjoyed your 20th birthday, love.

to hug you when i sleep

my baby
my darling baby



this photo totally reminded me of you.
my adorable darling (: (:

HAPPY HAPPY! (:

every message makes me happy. hahas. you're the best.

dang,

trust me to be the kind of girl that thinks too far ahead.

exactly four weeks to departure...
three weeks without you.
will miss you, no doubt.
all the desire

it's a trip i could easily pass up. and yet, what a rare opportunity, to see and experience a different country and culture...

i wonder if it's a worthy trade-off. time spent with you, versus new experiences in my life. because i never ever want to have to choose between you and anything else...

baby, you're the most precious.

Look!

P.s. I love you

can't smile without you

baby, you're my happy pill
my first thought in the morning
the last before i sleep
caring,
loving,
selfless.

it's always hard to say goodbye, can you believe it? even after all this time.

to my Love

I know a girl
a normal girl like any other.
Sweet as she is;
lovely, her astute wit;
beautiful, her face,
flawed like everyone else of the world,
yet ever so alluring.
I know a girl
who has bared her heart to me.
Devoted as she is;
courageous, this daring plunge,
a jump with no guarantee,
of the safety net below.

She cares
she listens
she empathizes
she laughs
she understands
she sings
she sacrifices
she helps...
She is my Love.


Love ya darlin' baby

it pains me not to be able to cheer you up :(

can hardly wait

you're coming back soon (: it's just...about 50+ hours away!

You

missing you much, my love. i miss your voice, your laughter, your sms-es, your presence online, your kisses, your hugs.

haven't been sleeping well at all. nightmares.

another week to go, darling baby, and i wish time would just fly by.

thanks for the flowers (: they're still alive! 4 days already. what a wonderful, tangible presence. i put them on the piano, so everytime i come home/leave house, i see them and i think of you, and what you mean to me. my everything, my forever.

i simply cannot wait to feel your arms around me again.

totally looking forward to this weekend, because i'll be hearing from you(:

less than 6 months to ORD. you've made it far, love. proud of ya(:

One

oh boy, it's been awhile. oh and it's been a year since....(: yay (:

i've been thinking about you non-stop.
every day, staring at my phone, 'maybe he'll drop a note', 'maybe he's really busy', stuff like that. i've missed you. i've been praying for your safety. hearing you getting so frustrated with what's going on made me so sad. i want to just be there and affirm you; that yes, you are a good person. you are capable, no matter what anyone says.

it doesn't matter if you can't change who you are, what matters is that you try. everyone's got their own way of dealing and you've got yours.


you're one of the most talented people i know, and if anyone wants to think otherwise...well...it's their loss.
i believe in you, my love. always have, always will.

To: My darling baby

Don't miss me too much, love.

We'd still keep in touch!


Whenever you feel alone at night
think of me,
think of us;
Sometimes it'd be hard,
but feel me from within,
feel our everlasting love,
and it will all be well

when you say you love me
i feel like the luckiest girl alive (:

oh look april's ending and the blog is dyyyyingg haha.

i can't believe you're flying on our month-versary.
can i see you off at the airport?

yumm.

just gotta have you.

a continuation

i dreamed

of a little girl in pink, clutching at a bolster, wisps of hair covering her pillow. she lay sound asleep, like an angel, and we were there, an arm around each others' waist, watching over her.

Visions

I looked,
viewing a realm I could see,
but was not in


I saw

I saw her
in a long dress
of forest green
and yellow hay


with child


'My child,'
I muttered immediately,
somehow certain of what
I had said.


She could not see me
She hummed to herself
hand on her blessed abdomen
a look of tenderness
only a mother could muster
as the autumn maple
rained upon us

There I stood watching her
a specter
but my heart was warm

mriaow

i nibblez you!

just so you know

You
showed me how to love
taught me how to live
changed me.

You
helped me to trust
encouraged me to believe
brought me back.

and i'll never stop loving you.

sometimes, i feel like i'm not good enough for you.

so i try to make up by showing you i really want to be with you any chance i get, to show you that you mean everything to me. i send you little messages at random times in the day to show you that i'm always thinking of you.

sometimes, i just don't feel like i'm worth your time.
i hope i am.

you're such a beautiful angel when you're asleep.

i'm going to kiss you now. (:

oh
gosh
baby

i am so craving you right now.

i'm marrying you

a friend asked me today,

'how do you know he's the one? you can't possibly be sure!'

i just do. because you're the best (:

So, to my baby, valentine.

I know I'm not the easiest to please
And maybe I'm the worst to be with
Anybody else might say the same

But you hold me in your arms
And tell me things I know are true
Things like "I'll be there for you always"

And I've never felt this way before
Never known the love you're giving me

So to my baby, valentine,
The star in my night sky
I wish today that we will be forever
When you're around
It's only you I think about
Cos you're around,
There's only you I'll dream about

Sometimes the hardest thing to do
Is to say that I love you
Because it's scary what the future holds

But then we'll be together every day
In what we do and what we say
The thought of this keeps me going

And I've never felt this way before
Never known the love you're giving me

So to my baby, valentine,
The star in my night sky
I wish today that we will be forever
When you're around
It's only you I think about
Cos you're around,
There's only you I'll dream about

Happy Valentine's Day!

<3

we're going to find pie!!!!!!

it is upon us!

so...valentine's day is coming. the day where in girls' schools and jc girls go CRAZY about giving out flowers, sweets, cards and all kinds of awesomely cute things to each other in the name of friendship!

i have never celebrated valentine's day with a boy, and last year you were in camp. what is valentine's day to you? do you believe that it's just another over-commercialised day? or are you one of those who thinks that the 14th of february is special special special?

well well, saturday is coming and it'd be nice if we could do something together(: that is, if you're not a valentine's day abstainee. hahaha.

i was watching grey's anatomy and derek had just planned on proposing to meredith. except that he's pretty jumpy about it and has been acting queer to her the whole day so she thought he'd had second thoughts of being together. then they had a conversation that went like this.

m: you know, we probably shouldn't have babies together. they'd get all my bad dna. they'd get my dad's alzheimers, they'd get my mum's suicidal tendencies, they'd have my split ends!

d: mer, i want your crappy babies.

m: you do??

d: all of them.

oh, <3

!!!

and i fall in love with you,
over and over again.
and more so each time (:

hell knows i want you

miao (:
-paw

snuggle
squish
press press
tickleeeee!

kiss!

No words

Indeed.


Isn't it just amazing
how things get
sweeter
by day



Can't do without
You


Joy
Comfort
Support



I love you.

Month-versary

yup, so another 16th has come and gone. the 14th 16th. a year and 2 months.
we've come so far,
and we've truly had to work to make it work, through the separations and occasional conflict.
i'm thankful that both of us want this equally much. we're so comfortable with each other now and i'm glad that we open up more.

i look up to everything you are. in so many ways, you are an example to me. you inspire me. thank you for giving me all you have.

i will always love you (:

yupzzx

We're Invincible.

you and i, we make us invincible.
baby,
just holding you and falling asleep beside you last night...
even if for a short while,
it made me feel
so damn loved

Muse

To us,
to withstand the test of Time.



Cheers.

Happy new year, my beloved.

"It's beautiful, yeah, how 2007 ended and 2008 began."

Sweetheart,
it's now 2009. All the best to us, and more beautiful moments ahead(: