these few days have not been easy for me.
being around people with their respective other halves just makes me miss you more!
it's so tiring to keep up with the smiling, the singing...
the idea of having someone's hand to hold on a long bus journey from one house to another, to have a shoulder to lean on when i'm dead tired...
i close my eyes, and think of you
of your embrace.
you give me strength.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Love
"...and the greatest of these is Love."
yes, when it comes down to the barest essentials, we have Faith, Hope and Love. and God tells us that the greatest of them is Love.
i will love you, my dearest,
for to me, you are home.
i leave my heart in your hands, as yours are in mine.
i will caress it, and treat it with respect. with gentleness.
with love.
yes, when it comes down to the barest essentials, we have Faith, Hope and Love. and God tells us that the greatest of them is Love.
i will love you, my dearest,
for to me, you are home.
i leave my heart in your hands, as yours are in mine.
i will caress it, and treat it with respect. with gentleness.
with love.
Monday, December 15, 2008
Endless Rain
It's a dream, I'm in love with you.
Hold me warmly in your arms.
I awake from my dream
I can't find my way without you
Endless rain, fall on my heart...
Hold me warmly in your arms.
I awake from my dream
I can't find my way without you
Endless rain, fall on my heart...
Sunday, December 14, 2008
we can't afford to be this way towards each other.
damn it,
because i was insensitive to you
we don't get this weekend together. at all.
it hurts.
i want to say that the tears aren't worth it because i'm crying myself silly right now.
but i love you
and it hurts me knowing that i hurt you
because i would never intentionally put you aside.
please understand me. i would never. intentionally hurt you and if i do, tell me.
please don't just keep quiet...
silence doesn't cure anything.
i don't know how this hurt will heal.
when you're upset, all i want to do is be there for you, and i can't when i'm the source of your anger.
damn it all i want to do is to be there for you.
i'm sorry.
damn it,
because i was insensitive to you
we don't get this weekend together. at all.
it hurts.
i want to say that the tears aren't worth it because i'm crying myself silly right now.
but i love you
and it hurts me knowing that i hurt you
because i would never intentionally put you aside.
please understand me. i would never. intentionally hurt you and if i do, tell me.
please don't just keep quiet...
silence doesn't cure anything.
i don't know how this hurt will heal.
when you're upset, all i want to do is be there for you, and i can't when i'm the source of your anger.
damn it all i want to do is to be there for you.
i'm sorry.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Muse
Hey babe,
it's the same over here.
If you ever need reassuring.
I'm thinking 'bout you
ever so often in the span of a day
It's just so crazy
'cause what'd I be without you?
I want you too baby
And you know that fact
So whenever Time allows
We'd be holding hands
Together we walk
Across the fields of gold
With the winds on our faces
And flowers by our feet
Our hair dancing to that rhythm;
Our palms firming ajoined;
Our lips pressed together;
Our hearts beating as One.
it's the same over here.
If you ever need reassuring.
I'm thinking 'bout you
ever so often in the span of a day
It's just so crazy
'cause what'd I be without you?
I want you too baby
And you know that fact
So whenever Time allows
We'd be holding hands
Together we walk
Across the fields of gold
With the winds on our faces
And flowers by our feet
Our hair dancing to that rhythm;
Our palms firming ajoined;
Our lips pressed together;
Our hearts beating as One.
Monday, November 17, 2008
poof!
our blog is dying! hahahaha.
anyhoo,
i seriously couldn't get you off my mind today. i mean, i think about you every day, but today was really like 'i want you i want you i want you' nearly every damn second. gosh. baby i want you.
anyhoo,
i seriously couldn't get you off my mind today. i mean, i think about you every day, but today was really like 'i want you i want you i want you' nearly every damn second. gosh. baby i want you.
Friday, November 14, 2008
as we get there
love
the stuff of legend
a boy
and a girl
promises
eternity
three words
two hearts
one soul
love
the stuff of legend
the stuff of legend
a boy
and a girl
promises
eternity
three words
two hearts
one soul
love
the stuff of legend
Monday, November 10, 2008
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Muse
Funny how it's different when we're together,
as compared to when we're away.
An hour could be a few minutes,
or a day;
A day, a night, could be a couple of hours,
or a week;
A week could be blissful joy,
or torturous to endure.
It's always so hard to say goodbye,
till we might actually hate it when Providence
grants us more time together than usual.
No,
we shouldn't blame the opportunity to be together
for such pain.
I'd rather such pain,
even if it means spending just a mere moment with you.
as compared to when we're away.
An hour could be a few minutes,
or a day;
A day, a night, could be a couple of hours,
or a week;
A week could be blissful joy,
or torturous to endure.
It's always so hard to say goodbye,
till we might actually hate it when Providence
grants us more time together than usual.
No,
we shouldn't blame the opportunity to be together
for such pain.
I'd rather such pain,
even if it means spending just a mere moment with you.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
To: The Birthday Boy
happy birthday. thank God for you (: looking forward to when we can actually celebrate on the actual date. haha. loveyou many birthdays more!
Sunday, October 19, 2008
faith
Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
In my dreams
I’ll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I’ll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you’ll be
'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me
In my dreams
I’ll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I’ll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you’ll be
'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always
Saturday, October 18, 2008
meow!
boyfriend ah...i miss you lei. then somemore the shuffle mode keep playing starlight and unintended. haha. and then hor i dream about you when i take before-dinner nap sia.
i was just reading some of my archives...haha. in a post dated 16th nov, after your left my house that night, i posted that it was going to be fun. and fun it has been (:
it's just queer spending a saturday evening without you around. normally we'd be out for dinner...or something. thank you for spending the last couple of days with me.
random question...
what kind of parents would we be?
i was just reading some of my archives...haha. in a post dated 16th nov, after your left my house that night, i posted that it was going to be fun. and fun it has been (:
it's just queer spending a saturday evening without you around. normally we'd be out for dinner...or something. thank you for spending the last couple of days with me.
random question...
what kind of parents would we be?
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Heya
Heya.
You asked me to blog eh?
And here I am!
Ahahaha
Well...
Just yesterday, I looked through all the letters you've written for me;
my 18th birthday,
my first month in the Army,
dinner at nebo cafe,
one written with SP writing paper,
the pink ones you left me when you went to Australia.
There was a ring of warm nostalgia.
And I still think to myself...
It still feels like yesterday,
that I told my officer in BMT,
that we were 2 months attached,
and he wished us luck...
be it lazing around,
standing around acting cool,
it never feels the same,
with you around.
Sometimes when I awake in the morning,
I start searching for you,
even though there's absolutely no chance that you could possibly be around.
You asked me to blog eh?
And here I am!
Ahahaha
Still feels like our first night together
Well...
Feels like the first kiss
Just yesterday, I looked through all the letters you've written for me;
my 18th birthday,
my first month in the Army,
dinner at nebo cafe,
one written with SP writing paper,
the pink ones you left me when you went to Australia.
There was a ring of warm nostalgia.
And I still think to myself...
It still feels like yesterday,
that I told my officer in BMT,
that we were 2 months attached,
and he wished us luck...
You're the only one I'd ever wantEven when we do nothing,
be it lazing around,
standing around acting cool,
it never feels the same,
with you around.
I only wanna make it go
Sometimes when I awake in the morning,
I start searching for you,
even though there's absolutely no chance that you could possibly be around.
So if I love you a little more than I should...
Don't think I told you my Dad
asked about us last Sunday
while driving me back to camp.
He was asking how we were doing.
He told me that if I had one key and there were five locks,
what kind of chance was there in opening the first lock I choose...
Until I told him that she,
you, my love,
told him that I believed we could work out,
that I feel strongly for you...
Love,
that's what it is,
Sihaya...
asked about us last Sunday
while driving me back to camp.
He was asking how we were doing.
He told me that if I had one key and there were five locks,
what kind of chance was there in opening the first lock I choose...
Until I told him that she,
you, my love,
told him that I believed we could work out,
that I feel strongly for you...
Love,
that's what it is,
Sihaya...
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Friday, October 10, 2008
dream on
baby baby baby!
haha i can just imagine you like, rolling around being absolutely lazy in bed. so fun i can't believe i've been dreaming about you so much this week too! from you eating tao suan to singing on stage to you and me being in your room (and i don't even know what your room looks like), it's been a week of good dreams, baby. and the best part is i get to see you tonight (:
haha i can just imagine you like, rolling around being absolutely lazy in bed. so fun i can't believe i've been dreaming about you so much this week too! from you eating tao suan to singing on stage to you and me being in your room (and i don't even know what your room looks like), it's been a week of good dreams, baby. and the best part is i get to see you tonight (:
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
To: The Birthday Girl
I'm sorry I didn't get anything substantial for you this year.
Foolish how I thought just playing a song for you would suffice.
Hope you had a great birthday nonetheless.
Foolish how I thought just playing a song for you would suffice.
Hope you had a great birthday nonetheless.
all mine
flashback to a year ago,
i had just received a handmade gift from you, and we had our first extended one-to-one face-to-face conversation. thank you for that night,
and thank you for tonight.
you were my unintended and few thought we'd ever be,
but here we are today ready to face a future together.
yes, i do have my doubts occasionally as to whether or not we'd make it through your NSF days because it's just so damn hard sometimes but every time we meet i am reaffirmed of your love for me. it's in the littlest things you do and how you make me feel.
baby, thanks for making me feel like the luckiest person to turn 19 today.
i had just received a handmade gift from you, and we had our first extended one-to-one face-to-face conversation. thank you for that night,
and thank you for tonight.
you were my unintended and few thought we'd ever be,
but here we are today ready to face a future together.
yes, i do have my doubts occasionally as to whether or not we'd make it through your NSF days because it's just so damn hard sometimes but every time we meet i am reaffirmed of your love for me. it's in the littlest things you do and how you make me feel.
baby, thanks for making me feel like the luckiest person to turn 19 today.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
so i gave it a shot
It's a warm embrace tonight
And every other
Even if you're not here
There's always the dreams
Dreams about love
Dreams about tenderness
Dreams about you
Dreaming because I love you
It's a comforting embrace tonight
In fact, it doesn't
Have to be night.
Any time will do.
The love is real
The tenderness tangible
And you are all I need
As I drift off...to sleep.
And every other
Even if you're not here
There's always the dreams
Dreams about love
Dreams about tenderness
Dreams about you
Dreaming because I love you
It's a comforting embrace tonight
In fact, it doesn't
Have to be night.
Any time will do.
The love is real
The tenderness tangible
And you are all I need
As I drift off...to sleep.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Muse
You'd only left this morning,
but still I miss you already.
If it wasn't for that shoulder ache...
We've been together for
days
weeks
months
eventually years
and indefinitely
Yet
everytime we're parted
- oh so often! -
I pine for you so;
Everytime we're together,
saying 'goodbye' always
brings about
a dull ache to this heart,
this heart within my bosom
that is full of love.
Love, only for one.
You, mahal,
my one and only.
Till we meet again,
baby.
I shall be awaiting your call...
but still I miss you already.
If it wasn't for that shoulder ache...
We've been together for
days
weeks
months
eventually years
and indefinitely
Yet
everytime we're parted
- oh so often! -
I pine for you so;
Everytime we're together,
saying 'goodbye' always
brings about
a dull ache to this heart,
this heart within my bosom
that is full of love.
Love, only for one.
You, mahal,
my one and only.
Till we meet again,
baby.
I shall be awaiting your call...
Thursday, September 4, 2008
a reason
just for you love, i'm going to try and get over my kitchen phobia! i wonder how this new venture of mine will be but um, haha. just hope that over time you won't be poisoned and uh..don't be too critical? i'm scared!
watching FRIENDS is like, inspirational. because monica is such a phenomenal chef! buahahaha i need to cook something other than instant noodles for a change.
watching FRIENDS is like, inspirational. because monica is such a phenomenal chef! buahahaha i need to cook something other than instant noodles for a change.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Hugs
Hey baby.
It's been over 9 months already.
And still we tear
Don't cry alright?
Even do I myself do at times
It's alright,
it's alright.
Love you much.
Take care of yourself!
Oh, work on the project if you're really bored.
It's been over 9 months already.
And still we tear
Don't cry alright?
Even do I myself do at times
It's alright,
it's alright.
Love you much.
Take care of yourself!
Oh, work on the project if you're really bored.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
a simple, simple dream
i'm just a girl,
a girl with dream
a dream you will help fulfill
i dream that we'll take
whatever we have
and by our merits make it real
because the reality is
i am yours
and you are mine
for life
so we'll build this life
based on a dream
a simple, simple dream
a girl with dream
a dream you will help fulfill
i dream that we'll take
whatever we have
and by our merits make it real
because the reality is
i am yours
and you are mine
for life
so we'll build this life
based on a dream
a simple, simple dream
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Saturday, August 16, 2008
faber drive - when i'm with you
i think this song sums it up (:
when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
i'll make every second count
when i'm with you
when i'm with you
whatever it takes
im not gonna break the promise i made
when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you
when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
i'll make every second count
when i'm with you
when i'm with you
whatever it takes
im not gonna break the promise i made
when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you
Monday, August 11, 2008
from beethoven to beloved
so...i came across this letter...
Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours
Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours
Sunday, August 10, 2008
ergh
i'm sorry i can't be the awesome girlfriend you thought i could be either. i $%^& up, i make bad decisions...
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Sunday, August 3, 2008
for the Bible tells me so
1 If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 And if I give all my possessions to feed the poor, and if I surrender my body to be burned, but do not have love, it profits me nothing.
4 Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, 5 does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, 6 does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
4 Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, 5 does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, 6 does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
unbreakable
'forget the fear
it's just a crutch
that tries to hold you back
and turn your dreams to dust
all you need to do is just
trust'
it's just a crutch
that tries to hold you back
and turn your dreams to dust
all you need to do is just
trust'
Friday, July 25, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
we got time
mmm baby.
miss you much.
anyhow, i just realised muse songs remind me of you all the time.
miss you much.
anyhow, i just realised muse songs remind me of you all the time.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Ahh...
Here's an oldie of pining hearts I heard, played during Hellboy..
You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you
http://www.minibite.com/heartache/cantsmile.htm
I miss your smiling face.
Can't wait for you to be back!
You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you
http://www.minibite.com/heartache/cantsmile.htm
I miss your smiling face.
Can't wait for you to be back!
Monday, July 7, 2008
oohla!
hey baby!
haha.
you'll see this on the weekend, i expect (:
i'm leaving house in about 10min.
loveyoucrazy.
it's been a week, hope all's well.
for the record, i heard starlight again! this time, it was in val's car as she drove us to huiren's house after breakfast.
sweet love,
it's just about 10 days till i get home, and a week or less till we see each other again. HUGS TILL THEN (:
haha.
you'll see this on the weekend, i expect (:
i'm leaving house in about 10min.
loveyoucrazy.
it's been a week, hope all's well.
for the record, i heard starlight again! this time, it was in val's car as she drove us to huiren's house after breakfast.
sweet love,
it's just about 10 days till i get home, and a week or less till we see each other again. HUGS TILL THEN (:
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Hey Babe
You'd be off and away tomorrow night.
Tis the last day I'd be seeing ya before some time.
It's ok,
cause where you go,
I know we're under the same sky,
under the same moon,
the same stars,
the same starlight.
And most importantly
I know you'd be back.
Have fun there, love!
I'd be eagerly awaiting the arrival
of my bride
my mahal
You
Tis the last day I'd be seeing ya before some time.
It's ok,
cause where you go,
I know we're under the same sky,
under the same moon,
the same stars,
the same starlight.
And most importantly
I know you'd be back.
Have fun there, love!
I'd be eagerly awaiting the arrival
of my bride
my mahal
You
Thursday, July 3, 2008
my regrets
my dearest mahal,
i am sorry that at this i have nothing to leave you with when i leave for so long. from sunday, it will be nearly three weeks before we see each other again. i've been so crazy busy but baby, please don't think i've forgotten you. i could never forget you. it's just so hard to get anything done. again, it shouldn't be an excuse, but i'm not so brilliant a multi-tasker, so it seems.
it will be the longest we've been separated, save for my life before knowing you.
i am sorry that at this i have nothing to leave you with when i leave for so long. from sunday, it will be nearly three weeks before we see each other again. i've been so crazy busy but baby, please don't think i've forgotten you. i could never forget you. it's just so hard to get anything done. again, it shouldn't be an excuse, but i'm not so brilliant a multi-tasker, so it seems.
it will be the longest we've been separated, save for my life before knowing you.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Solo Por Ti
Te daré mil poesías,
las escribiré para tí.
Cantaré mis melodías,
con la música de tu alma..
Solo por tí,caminaría
en la infinidad.
Afrontaría,
contigo la eternidad...
a thousand poems
i would write
i would sing
the music of your soul
for you i will walk endlessly
i will confront eternity
only for you
las escribiré para tí.
Cantaré mis melodías,
con la música de tu alma..
Solo por tí,caminaría
en la infinidad.
Afrontaría,
contigo la eternidad...
a thousand poems
i would write
i would sing
the music of your soul
for you i will walk endlessly
i will confront eternity
only for you
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Unintended
only you can make me feel like crying, and in a good way.
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens
To my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before
Before you
yes love, we'll be together again soon.
it was already a blessing being able to spend my entire afternoon and some of the evening with you.
have a good week ahead, and i hope your posting is in your favour.
hearts and hugs,
your mahal.
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens
To my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before
Before you
yes love, we'll be together again soon.
it was already a blessing being able to spend my entire afternoon and some of the evening with you.
have a good week ahead, and i hope your posting is in your favour.
hearts and hugs,
your mahal.
Unintended
He: (finishes singing)
(Silence)
He: (softly) Yay, you're asleep!
Hokay, put down the phone now...
She: (groggily) ...huh?
He: C'mon babe, you're asleep now.
Put the phone down...
She: Be mine.
He: (Coos) Now now, just put the phone down...
She: Be mine.
He: Honey, hang up...you're asleep. Lalala...
She: Be mine.
Always.
He: ...Forever.
(Silence)
He: Put the phone down now, k babe?
She: (murmurs something unintelligible)
He: Hmm?
She: I miss you so bad.
...I want to see you now.
He: You'd get to see me tomor-
No, later today.
It's very soon. Before you know it,
I'd be right there waving at you.
She: But...
He: You need to sleep, love.
Please?
She: Hmph...okay.
Love you very much...
He: G'night, love.
She: Buh-bye....
(Pause)
(Click)
Monday, June 16, 2008
Friday, June 13, 2008
cool
gosh, baby, 3 days away from home and somehow i felt further away from you.
missed you like crazy.
i guess it was worse not hearing from you either. but it's friday. and maybe i'll get to talk to you tonight.
i had my share of fun and this week passed really quickly.
and 'endless rain' kept playing over and over in my head.
i really hope your live firing goes okay. i'm scared out of my wits, knowing i can't do anything if *TOUCHWOOD* anything untoward happens to you.
hugs, mahal.
missed you like crazy.
i guess it was worse not hearing from you either. but it's friday. and maybe i'll get to talk to you tonight.
i had my share of fun and this week passed really quickly.
and 'endless rain' kept playing over and over in my head.
i really hope your live firing goes okay. i'm scared out of my wits, knowing i can't do anything if *TOUCHWOOD* anything untoward happens to you.
hugs, mahal.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
No rain is endless...
And in due time
Light will bathe them both,
and peace of heart will reign again
as Souls in Love will reunite
Light will bathe them both,
and peace of heart will reign again
as Souls in Love will reunite
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
the midweek
baby, this is so random, but...
love you crazy (:
it was awesome to get to speak with you yesterday...if only for ten minutes.
smile for me, sweet love, smile for me.
everything will be alright.
love you crazy (:
it was awesome to get to speak with you yesterday...if only for ten minutes.
smile for me, sweet love, smile for me.
everything will be alright.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
1st June
So I gotta go back in very soon.
After 2 days of bliss in total.
I don't remember ever feeling so bad...
since BMT.
I don't know why.
Babe, did you know,
I was tearing as we were on the phone at 7+,
before we hung up?
Still am.
Aye,
I need you.
It's not even about want.
Your words give me strength, love.
I will survive.
Everything's going to be alright.
Thank you for everything...
"At the end of the day,
at the end of Time,
you will see a rainbow up high,
as the Sun will shine for you again"
Damn it,
I love you so much
After 2 days of bliss in total.
I don't remember ever feeling so bad...
since BMT.
I don't know why.
Babe, did you know,
I was tearing as we were on the phone at 7+,
before we hung up?
Still am.
Aye,
I need you.
It's not even about want.
Your words give me strength, love.
I will survive.
Everything's going to be alright.
Thank you for everything...
"At the end of the day,
at the end of Time,
you will see a rainbow up high,
as the Sun will shine for you again"
Damn it,
I love you so much
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
take heart
gosh baby i wish i could be with you right now.
i hate how when things get tough in there, i can't do anything about it, except pray. i wish it could be more tangible.
you may say you're weak, but people slip up once in awhile. neither of us is perfect. there's no point comparing yourself to other people, simply because you're not them. tests aren't everything, making it in cbre isn't everything, even though as this point in time, it may seem so. love, the most important thing is to retain who you are. by staying true to who you are, come what may, that will pull you through.
mahal kita.
<3
i hate how when things get tough in there, i can't do anything about it, except pray. i wish it could be more tangible.
you may say you're weak, but people slip up once in awhile. neither of us is perfect. there's no point comparing yourself to other people, simply because you're not them. tests aren't everything, making it in cbre isn't everything, even though as this point in time, it may seem so. love, the most important thing is to retain who you are. by staying true to who you are, come what may, that will pull you through.
mahal kita.
<3
Sunday, May 25, 2008
mmmm
i love it all. i love the future. i love you.
we'd be back together again soon (:
you're the only person i can wholly trust
we'd be back together again soon (:
you're the only person i can wholly trust
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
This is not a Post Mortem
I should consider myself
lucky to have somebody
like you
"Confine yourself to observing and you always miss the point of your own life. The object can be stated this way: Live the best life you can. Life is a game whose rules you learn if you leap into it and play it to the hilt. Otherwise, you are caught off balance, continually surprised by the shifting play. Non-players often whine and complain that luck always passes them by. They refuse to see that they can create some of their own luck."
A quote from one of the Dune books.
You could always change the point of 'observing' to that of 'traversing'.
The beaten path...
The path less travelled...
Fairytales aren't obsolete
lucky to have somebody
like you
"Confine yourself to observing and you always miss the point of your own life. The object can be stated this way: Live the best life you can. Life is a game whose rules you learn if you leap into it and play it to the hilt. Otherwise, you are caught off balance, continually surprised by the shifting play. Non-players often whine and complain that luck always passes them by. They refuse to see that they can create some of their own luck."
A quote from one of the Dune books.
You could always change the point of 'observing' to that of 'traversing'.
The beaten path...
The path less travelled...
Fairytales aren't obsolete
Monday, May 19, 2008
know
hope everything works out for you in the end, love.
i'll probably never know for real what's getting to you, but i hope being here helps. if anything, i'll be your listening ear, or a shoulder to lean on. i'm not here as your girlfriend to only taste the sweetness of love, but to experience everything.
i want to be your everything.
and we could be our own fairytale (:
i'll probably never know for real what's getting to you, but i hope being here helps. if anything, i'll be your listening ear, or a shoulder to lean on. i'm not here as your girlfriend to only taste the sweetness of love, but to experience everything.
i want to be your everything.
and we could be our own fairytale (:
Friday, May 16, 2008
tres
my dearest,
i can't wait for tomorrow.
and sunday...and monday.
you're probably into your graduation march now, i can only wonder how you're feeling. i'm hoping your knee holds out; you said it felt better this morning at least. keep strong, love. i know you can do it baby.
i think about closing my eyes, welcoming another day, getting through tomorrow just to be with you.
i think about how much i miss you.
and i know,
i want you too.
i can't wait for tomorrow.
and sunday...and monday.
you're probably into your graduation march now, i can only wonder how you're feeling. i'm hoping your knee holds out; you said it felt better this morning at least. keep strong, love. i know you can do it baby.
i think about closing my eyes, welcoming another day, getting through tomorrow just to be with you.
i think about how much i miss you.
and i know,
i want you too.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Friday, May 9, 2008
it's ind
class95's love songs accompanied me on the way back in the car, after supper with mon's family. cheesy as it may sound, i ended up missing you more. and then clay aiken's 'the way' came on, and i know how incredibly lame clay aiken is to some people, but still...the lyrics got to me.
'and i get all choked up inside, just thinking 'bout the way'
it's been a fun week, but nothing's ever complete without you. at least you're back from urban ops. maybe i'll hear from you again tomorrow, love. see you in lalaland, as usual(:
'and i get all choked up inside, just thinking 'bout the way'
it's been a fun week, but nothing's ever complete without you. at least you're back from urban ops. maybe i'll hear from you again tomorrow, love. see you in lalaland, as usual(:
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Thursday, May 1, 2008
strength
There is no life – no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
-Secret Garden, "You Raise Me Up"
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
-Secret Garden, "You Raise Me Up"
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
rarity
cannot wait to hear your voice.
much as individuality is emphasised and i know that i am my own person, much of who i am is a result of your love.
much as individuality is emphasised and i know that i am my own person, much of who i am is a result of your love.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
bishbish
o0o0ps, no harold and kumar in the end!
thursday or friday lah, yes? <3>
it's a comfort to lay by your side. now sleep tight love, do get the rest you need. i'll be hearing from you in a matter of hours again (:
Saturday, April 26, 2008
the escapist
Journey homeward bound
A sound of a dolphin calling
Tearing off the mask of man
The Tower my sole guide
This is who I am
Escapist, paradise seeker
Farewell now time to fly
Out of sight, out of time, away from all lies
...and back into your arms again.
it's saturday again (:
in about 9 hours my teaching day starts..and it'll be a matter of hours before i see you again.
been thinking about some things. some say relationships aren't worth it at our age because this is the age we should be free to do whatever we want. to find ourselves, and to be free. yet, i choose to let my life journey in the context of 'us'. you, my baby, are the one precious constant i hold dear in this turmoil of the transition from being a kid to a grown-up. from adolescence to adulthood.
<3
Thursday, April 24, 2008
my dearest
harold and kumar on saturday! yes!
meeting you just now was priceless. it just feels so right, being where you are. i remember blogging once, saying that in my mind, i had grown so attached to you such that i simply don't want to be where you aren't.
i realised that it isn't the case. rather, it's when i'm where you are that completes me. it doesn't matter if we're apart. what matters is when we're together.
you are fundamental to my being.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Log
15/04
He rushed into the Company Store. The Company Quartermaster looked up from behind the long wooden desk.
"Yes?"
Amidst deep breaths, he replied the Quartermaster, who already had an eyebrow arched.
'CQ, I need to draw two rubbish bags,'
"For what?"
'To clear the trash for the two rubbish bins upstairs,'
He was rather unsure as to why the Quartermaster had posted such a question, but not bothering, he proceeded to sign on a book for his drawing of the rubbish bags.
'Date...what date is it now?'
He started counting with his fingers.
'15th. Ok,'
He bent over, and was about to write the date in the latest entry, and he stopped short just as the pen touched the white slip of paper.
'Oh my God. Tomorrow's the 16th.'
He smiled.
16/04
He stood next to the soaked groundsheet; on it lay his smelly gear and that of his two buddies, along with two dark forms curled up in slumber.
He stretched, and looked up into the sky.
'It's almost the full moon...'
He was then bombarded by memories.
18/04
As he walked down the muddy trail, the image of an idealistic Harley Davidson materialized in his Mind.
'Man, I really wanna ride one,'
Thoughts of saving up for a motorcycle came to his Mind.
And so did a chain of other money-related things.
Music gear.
Bike licence.
Car licence.
Laptop.
University.
Wedding.
Family.
'Need to save alot...'
--------------
He returned to his bunk, tired from the day's navigation. He switched on his phone, and read the latest message in his inbox.
He froze for a few seconds, staring at his little phone.
As he walked out slowly, it began to rain.
Very shortly, it got really heavy.
And so he stood at the railing, glancing at the floodlight, which somehow made the rain look so much more beautiful, tranquil.
Yet his heart ached, for he yearned for his beloved, and her plight weakened him.
Yet filled him with a resolve to return to the Home.
I'd be home soon, mahal.
Please don't cry.
Love you, sweetheart, always
He rushed into the Company Store. The Company Quartermaster looked up from behind the long wooden desk.
"Yes?"
Amidst deep breaths, he replied the Quartermaster, who already had an eyebrow arched.
'CQ, I need to draw two rubbish bags,'
"For what?"
'To clear the trash for the two rubbish bins upstairs,'
He was rather unsure as to why the Quartermaster had posted such a question, but not bothering, he proceeded to sign on a book for his drawing of the rubbish bags.
'Date...what date is it now?'
He started counting with his fingers.
'15th. Ok,'
He bent over, and was about to write the date in the latest entry, and he stopped short just as the pen touched the white slip of paper.
'Oh my God. Tomorrow's the 16th.'
He smiled.
16/04
He stood next to the soaked groundsheet; on it lay his smelly gear and that of his two buddies, along with two dark forms curled up in slumber.
He stretched, and looked up into the sky.
'It's almost the full moon...'
He was then bombarded by memories.
18/04
As he walked down the muddy trail, the image of an idealistic Harley Davidson materialized in his Mind.
'Man, I really wanna ride one,'
Thoughts of saving up for a motorcycle came to his Mind.
And so did a chain of other money-related things.
Music gear.
Bike licence.
Car licence.
Laptop.
University.
Wedding.
Family.
'Need to save alot...'
--------------
He returned to his bunk, tired from the day's navigation. He switched on his phone, and read the latest message in his inbox.
He froze for a few seconds, staring at his little phone.
As he walked out slowly, it began to rain.
Very shortly, it got really heavy.
And so he stood at the railing, glancing at the floodlight, which somehow made the rain look so much more beautiful, tranquil.
Yet his heart ached, for he yearned for his beloved, and her plight weakened him.
Yet filled him with a resolve to return to the Home.
I'd be home soon, mahal.
Please don't cry.
Love you, sweetheart, always
Saturday, April 19, 2008
switchfoot - you
There's always something in the way
There's always something getting through
But it's not me; it's you
Sometimes ignorance rings true
But hope is not in what I know
It's not in me
It's in you
It's in you
It's all I know
It's all I know
It's all I know
I find peace when I'm confused
I find hope when I'm let down
Not in me; in you
It's in you
I hope to lose myself for good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me; in you
In you
It's all I know
It's all I know
It's all I know
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Friday, April 11, 2008
chasing starlight
tomorrow's coming. the weekend's here.
8 hours of lessons to go.
i just wanted to
hold you in my arms
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
flotsam
baby...when you were talking about our future...
i melted.
2015? nice numbered year, we'd be 26 and both done with education. pink dress, purple suit, pink suit for hong..haha. everything we talked of will come true then, our home..our lives.
i can't believe it. the first thing you said to me was 'HAHA YOU CAN'T PLAY'
I LOVE YOU ANYWAY, DOOF (:
Thursday, April 3, 2008
ELECTRIC
i swear it's entirely your fault that this retro-techno sounding thing is in my head. haha.
"togeeeether in electric dreeeams'
hahaha OHBOY.
oh and i actually feel alive now! what a change! miss you baby. hmm. was just thinking...the next time you have a night's off..i hope i can go find you. for fun. haha. i swear if i wasn't sick last night i totally would have! and maybe spoil your party by intruding on you and whoever you're with :p
dreamt about you again. this time, it was just about you..and me..like on new year's. it's awesome when the first thing i see in when i wake up is you. (:
and to tell you the truth, i find it insanely hard to classify the love i have for you too. it's pretty indescribable, but mark my words it sure exists in LARGE amounts. YAYYY cheers to us!
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
just because
i just can't get over how much i need you. to borrow your words, you are the best thing that's happened to me.
because of you, there is joy where there was regret and sadness.
because of you, there is comfort where there was emptiness.
because of you, i am happy.
waiting for tonight, to hear your voice love.
Monday, March 24, 2008
To my Love
It's just back to NS, that's all.
Boon Lay somemore, not some blasted island anymore.
No need to take ferry...
Hopefully no need to rush on sunday afternoon/evenings...
I've been through the whole first 2 months already!
But still...
I can't deny there always is that lurching deep down inside whenever I have to leave.
The only time I felt kinda ok was the CNY week and the POP week.
Because I knew I'd see you real soon.
One week isn't exactly VERY long...
but it ain't that short either.
The only reason why one ever feels such reluctance?
Because they love;
They have people to love;
They have places to love.
And ironically, we have to defend this place because we want to protect those we love...heh...
And my love rests with you,
deep in your bosom,
right with your heart.
Sometimes it might not seem so distinct,
so obvious an existence;
Sometimes you might doubt;
Sometimes you might fear.
But just feel deep down inside.
What do you feel? See? Hear? Sense?
My love is with you, and yours, always.
Never forget that, mahal.
And yes,
my heart too is full,
filled with You.
Just like when we were at the bus-stop at the main road outside my residence...
The memories, experiences, moments, everything...
Everything that came to being the moment we got to know each other;
From us first meeting and speaking;
From me fancying you;
From the subsequant wooing;
From your actions and reactions;
From our getting together;
From our first kiss;
and much, much more.
Too much,
that only the Heart, Mind and Soul
can feel.
One word:
Beautiful.
Did you even know, mahal?
Your presence in my Life means so much.
In retrospect...
it's as though I've never lived until you appeared.
It might sound cliche,
but even popular songs and expressions have a basis to spring forth.
I've never felt so...emotional.
And I don't mean emo.
The joy you give me;
The joy I get from making you happy;
The joy I get from seeing you happy;
The pangs of worry whenever something unfortunate happens or might happen;
The longing I get when we are separated.
I have never felt so attached to
anyone,
anything.
It has come to a point when I simply cannot envision Life without you.
Yes, it really does seem that we might marry.
Yes, I want to age with you.
And even in death would we not part,
for we would have eternal life,
in the Kingdom of God.
One day,
We will be.
You made me Live,
and you make me want to Live.
One day,
what we call a fantasy,
will be our world,
our Avantasia.
I love you, mahal.
Always.
Boon Lay somemore, not some blasted island anymore.
No need to take ferry...
Hopefully no need to rush on sunday afternoon/evenings...
I've been through the whole first 2 months already!
But still...
I can't deny there always is that lurching deep down inside whenever I have to leave.
The only time I felt kinda ok was the CNY week and the POP week.
Because I knew I'd see you real soon.
One week isn't exactly VERY long...
but it ain't that short either.
The only reason why one ever feels such reluctance?
Because they love;
They have people to love;
They have places to love.
And ironically, we have to defend this place because we want to protect those we love...heh...
And my love rests with you,
deep in your bosom,
right with your heart.
Sometimes it might not seem so distinct,
so obvious an existence;
Sometimes you might doubt;
Sometimes you might fear.
But just feel deep down inside.
What do you feel? See? Hear? Sense?
My love is with you, and yours, always.
Never forget that, mahal.
And yes,
my heart too is full,
filled with You.
Just like when we were at the bus-stop at the main road outside my residence...
The memories, experiences, moments, everything...
Everything that came to being the moment we got to know each other;
From us first meeting and speaking;
From me fancying you;
From the subsequant wooing;
From your actions and reactions;
From our getting together;
From our first kiss;
and much, much more.
Too much,
that only the Heart, Mind and Soul
can feel.
One word:
Beautiful.
Did you even know, mahal?
Your presence in my Life means so much.
In retrospect...
it's as though I've never lived until you appeared.
It might sound cliche,
but even popular songs and expressions have a basis to spring forth.
I've never felt so...emotional.
And I don't mean emo.
The joy you give me;
The joy I get from making you happy;
The joy I get from seeing you happy;
The pangs of worry whenever something unfortunate happens or might happen;
The longing I get when we are separated.
I have never felt so attached to
anyone,
anything.
It has come to a point when I simply cannot envision Life without you.
Yes, it really does seem that we might marry.
Yes, I want to age with you.
And even in death would we not part,
for we would have eternal life,
in the Kingdom of God.
One day,
We will be.
You made me Live,
and you make me want to Live.
One day,
what we call a fantasy,
will be our world,
our Avantasia.
I love you, mahal.
Always.
miau?
00sh. so the past week's been really good for us both.
i really think i'm going to marry you.
<3
haha, i even love the jokes we keep making about living together.
well well, there are still an insane number of challenges ahead before we get there, but we'll be as awesome as we've ever been and more. when the day comes, it'll be a marvellous dream come true. then we can look back on all these years and say
'ZOMG keke we how awesomezxzxzx' !!!!!!
Saturday, March 22, 2008
tuna timtam hotcrossbuns!
you are just SO DAMNED AWESOME.
tonight's makeshift 'picnic' was so quaint, yet i felt so..happy. yeah, happy. maybe the little soo chow area's become 'our area'. or not. whatever it is, with the birds nest fern infested trees and the moon looking down on us, and when it's just you and me, the moments just become special. simply special.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
the future
furniture shopping!
okay, one day it WILL become a reality. it's fun!
lawa lamps - no
gargoyle lamps - no
discoball lamps - ZOMG YOU ALREADY HAVE?!
fam brand tungsten balls - non-renewable resource
basket, quite troublesome aye? and those are just the lights!
another idea/must have: one room shall be converted into a soundproof recording studio.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
four
every moment spent with you,
is like magic
i'm really treasuring every moment we have together for now, and thanks, really, thanks for making time. sigh, i keep thinking about what's to come and what not, but i suppose it's really about loving the present. grateful for the little things.
love you baby,
always always always.
happy 16th, mahal!
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Well...
You know darlin',
that lil letter you wrote?
It was very heartwarming.
And trust me,
it was you that gave me strength whenever I awoke before daybreak,
whenever I was drenched with sweat in the burning day,
whenever the nights got long and draining,
whenever I woke up in the dead of the night;
It was you.
<3
that lil letter you wrote?
It was very heartwarming.
And trust me,
it was you that gave me strength whenever I awoke before daybreak,
whenever I was drenched with sweat in the burning day,
whenever the nights got long and draining,
whenever I woke up in the dead of the night;
It was you.
<3
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
eezveel
came across this in my daily gospel reflection today.
'May you keep in mind always the will the Lord has in place for us'.
now now, doesn't that sound so intriguing? and i wonder what He has in store for us.
roar, it's your last night in camp. really wish i could go for your POP tomorrow. but i guess i'll hear from ya after that or something. am currently clueless on what's happening tomorrow anyway.
buuuuuuut....
congrats on winning games day!! hahaha. so cute.
'May you keep in mind always the will the Lord has in place for us'.
now now, doesn't that sound so intriguing? and i wonder what He has in store for us.
roar, it's your last night in camp. really wish i could go for your POP tomorrow. but i guess i'll hear from ya after that or something. am currently clueless on what's happening tomorrow anyway.
buuuuuuut....
congrats on winning games day!! hahaha. so cute.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Uh hum
- I have NS.
- I might be abit gay for you.
- I might not be as awesome as you think.
I think that's how it went!
Yup, I'm sure you were stoked by results.
See, everything'd be fine =)
You make me so glad for you, sweetheart!
Ok I'm hungry...
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
claims dept
blogging from work, no choice since blogger refuses to load at home :/ been trying to post here the whole week!
first and foremost, thank you for making me feel so loved and wanted (:
secondly, i've found myself wondering and realising i've forgotten something.
remember you made me disclaimers? on my birthday? can you remember them, cos i can't, regretfully. so if you can remember, could list them here? hahaha.
there were also three more right after you asked if you could be my boyfriend. [priceless moment i'll never forget (: (: ] one was about NS. what were the other two? memory eludes me, ack.
you know everytime i think about friday, all i can do to console myself is the fact that you'll be there. and everything will be okay.
remember i'll always be here for you, baby.
<3
first and foremost, thank you for making me feel so loved and wanted (:
secondly, i've found myself wondering and realising i've forgotten something.
remember you made me disclaimers? on my birthday? can you remember them, cos i can't, regretfully. so if you can remember, could list them here? hahaha.
there were also three more right after you asked if you could be my boyfriend. [priceless moment i'll never forget (: (: ] one was about NS. what were the other two? memory eludes me, ack.
you know everytime i think about friday, all i can do to console myself is the fact that you'll be there. and everything will be okay.
remember i'll always be here for you, baby.
<3
Saturday, March 1, 2008
holy guacamole --
IT'S DURIAN!
hahahahahahaha baby thanks for settling my craving. so bloody awesome.
basket why you stay so far away now. haha.
hahahahahahaha baby thanks for settling my craving. so bloody awesome.
basket why you stay so far away now. haha.
Friday, February 29, 2008
long, windy roads
i guess the booking in/out thing does get rather upsetting. and from the outset, it's starting to look like one hell of a journey ahead.
i wish i could be there, and hold you..
and make everything okay.
i wish i could be there, and hold you..
and make everything okay.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
strange...
apparently there's a doctor whose initials are H.L. Chua.
hahahaha.
doctor leh!
wowee, hearing from you last night was refreshing indeed. my soporific, you say? baby, you make me feel alive. i can't imagine a future without you in it.
hahahaha.
doctor leh!
wowee, hearing from you last night was refreshing indeed. my soporific, you say? baby, you make me feel alive. i can't imagine a future without you in it.
Monday, February 25, 2008
sojourn
every time i read your journal, the part where you said you cleared SOC always cracks me up. i swear it's the exclamation marks.
you're adorable (:
maybe when you read this you'll remember when you sms-ed me the last time before sit test. i couldn't reply because i was helping alicia CARRY BOXES. more jumbo boxes for milli, yes. finally got them all out of the office and into the warehouse truck anyway. so yeah, apologies for not replying. roarrr.
you're adorable (:
maybe when you read this you'll remember when you sms-ed me the last time before sit test. i couldn't reply because i was helping alicia CARRY BOXES. more jumbo boxes for milli, yes. finally got them all out of the office and into the warehouse truck anyway. so yeah, apologies for not replying. roarrr.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
the cloud's veil
Even though the rain hides the stars
Even though the mist swirls the hills
Even when the dark clouds veil the sky
God is by my side
Even when the sun shall fall in sleep
Even when at dawn the sky shall weep
Even in the night when storms shall rise
God is by my side
this is one of my favourite hymns.
Even though the mist swirls the hills
Even when the dark clouds veil the sky
God is by my side
Even when the sun shall fall in sleep
Even when at dawn the sky shall weep
Even in the night when storms shall rise
God is by my side
this is one of my favourite hymns.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Hey
I'm back!
Nice job with the blog.
Looks pretty spunky!
Zai la you.
And yup, Friday night was great.
Did you know,
we survived fieldcamp, not just I?
All's good, baby.
Everything's alright.
Hope you're having a good sleep right now.
Sweet dreams, my love
Nice job with the blog.
Looks pretty spunky!
Zai la you.
And yup, Friday night was great.
Did you know,
we survived fieldcamp, not just I?
All's good, baby.
Everything's alright.
Hope you're having a good sleep right now.
Sweet dreams, my love
Friday, February 22, 2008
tonight
i must..have you. tonight.
need to hug you tonight.
hope i get to.
i'm on the verge of tearing my hair out. and the hours..oh the hours they pass too slowly this friday.
need to hug you tonight.
hope i get to.
i'm on the verge of tearing my hair out. and the hours..oh the hours they pass too slowly this friday.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
oh yeahhhhhh.
i heard from you.
i wasn't lying, when i said i was so happy i could cry. honestly, last night, all i could think about was you, and when you finally called, my mind simply spun.
"Yo."
haha HELLO. (: (: ok, i'll see you either tomorrow or saturday. i don't believe they'll make you stay till sunday. it's not fair! hahaha.
hmmmm. i'm off to work!
i wasn't lying, when i said i was so happy i could cry. honestly, last night, all i could think about was you, and when you finally called, my mind simply spun.
"Yo."
haha HELLO. (: (: ok, i'll see you either tomorrow or saturday. i don't believe they'll make you stay till sunday. it's not fair! hahaha.
hmmmm. i'm off to work!
Sunday, February 17, 2008
rainbow hearts
hmm. this was what i wrote the other day, i posted it on my LJ, but you might not read that, so here it is! like i said, it isn't particularly happy. anyways, i've been suffering from some insane onslaught of PMS. really.
A rainbow heart on the wall
Dancing in spring
As though colours birthed the world
(Or otherwise?)
But it all turned grey
And felt like sunshine squandered
Silly little moments
To be the lamppost in the dark
baby, we were 3 months old yesterday (:
i could love you forever.
i bought my guitar today!
haven't decided what to name it yet though.
it's dark purple-ish, abit like my hair!
one string of weekdays, and i get to see you again.
i miss your hugs, the warmth i feel when we're up against each other. i miss your hands..your kisses. most of all, i miss hearing your voice.
i need you.
A rainbow heart on the wall
Dancing in spring
As though colours birthed the world
(Or otherwise?)
But it all turned grey
And felt like sunshine squandered
Silly little moments
To be the lamppost in the dark
baby, we were 3 months old yesterday (:
i could love you forever.
i bought my guitar today!
haven't decided what to name it yet though.
it's dark purple-ish, abit like my hair!
one string of weekdays, and i get to see you again.
i miss your hugs, the warmth i feel when we're up against each other. i miss your hands..your kisses. most of all, i miss hearing your voice.
i need you.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
vow
we vowed never to perform with a missing member ever again.
while walking home from yck mrt, i looked up, and saw the moon. it was some kind of perfect semi circle, made more enchanting by the glow from being covered by a thin layer of clouds.
another week till we meet again, love. i'm glad this week flew by. it's harder not hearing from you, especially the next few days. i love you sweetheart, you're in my prayers.
while walking home from yck mrt, i looked up, and saw the moon. it was some kind of perfect semi circle, made more enchanting by the glow from being covered by a thin layer of clouds.
another week till we meet again, love. i'm glad this week flew by. it's harder not hearing from you, especially the next few days. i love you sweetheart, you're in my prayers.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
happy valentine's (:
close your eyes, dry your tears
and when nothing seems clear
you'll be safe here
when nobody hears you scream
i'll scream with you
you'll be safe here
-rivermaya, 'you'll be safe here'
celebrate life,
celebrate love!
crazy over you baby, as always.
and when nothing seems clear
you'll be safe here
when nobody hears you scream
i'll scream with you
you'll be safe here
-rivermaya, 'you'll be safe here'
celebrate life,
celebrate love!
crazy over you baby, as always.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
photos?
well well..i might start putting up photos, but that requires a little more discipline on my part. haha. all for a good cause! (: (:
really wonder what you'll think/make of this space when you get back. haha.
it's been some kinda day.
firstly, i realised i lost my wallet. so gone is 20 bucks (thank goodness i took out the other 20 from my wallet beforehand) together with my NRIC and ATM card. ARGGGHHH.
been calling Fisherman's Wharf the whole day to see if i could have accidentally left it there, but 9 calls later and still no one has answered the phone.
cb
AND THEN i fell down the stairs while carrying one of those evil big boxes. hurting all over the place, i really hope i feel better soon.
if anything, today's company buffet lunch was really fun, and the food was awesome. and amazing. and i'm meeting benja for dinner! (: (: and then it's back home to watch the episode of heroes i missed last night (insane, because i already have the entire season on my com but i insist on waiting to catch it every week, except for times like yesterday). then setting my sounds! (: (: tomorrow's jam at lcube will be SO AWESOME. hee.
<3
really wonder what you'll think/make of this space when you get back. haha.
it's been some kinda day.
firstly, i realised i lost my wallet. so gone is 20 bucks (thank goodness i took out the other 20 from my wallet beforehand) together with my NRIC and ATM card. ARGGGHHH.
been calling Fisherman's Wharf the whole day to see if i could have accidentally left it there, but 9 calls later and still no one has answered the phone.
cb
AND THEN i fell down the stairs while carrying one of those evil big boxes. hurting all over the place, i really hope i feel better soon.
if anything, today's company buffet lunch was really fun, and the food was awesome. and amazing. and i'm meeting benja for dinner! (: (: and then it's back home to watch the episode of heroes i missed last night (insane, because i already have the entire season on my com but i insist on waiting to catch it every week, except for times like yesterday). then setting my sounds! (: (: tomorrow's jam at lcube will be SO AWESOME. hee.
<3
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
uno!
i started a blog for us.
i know i've given you a couple of makeshift diaries, but there's only so much writing in the heat of the moment can bring out.
here's to more entries from me! and occasionally you, of course. as a reminder that we're together and together, we're invincible. we're awesome. you're awesome. you make me proud.
i know i can trust you (:
i love you.
i know i've given you a couple of makeshift diaries, but there's only so much writing in the heat of the moment can bring out.
here's to more entries from me! and occasionally you, of course. as a reminder that we're together and together, we're invincible. we're awesome. you're awesome. you make me proud.
i know i can trust you (:
i love you.
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